Would I be ready to die?

That is my question of the day to myself.  Would I be ready to die???  I mostly would say yes... but then there is a selfish part of me that says no.
That part is the one that enjoys seeing our children every day and sharing in their lives everyday.  I would miss that.  
I would miss see my beautiful husbands smile.
I would miss winter,, yup, can't believe I said that because I loath winter.. but when it suddenly would be taken from me... I know I would miss it.
I would miss seeing my future grandchildren and playing with them.  
I would miss my friends and customers.  I would miss my pets.  
I know I would not be around to miss any of these, but it is the unknown that I would miss.
Therefore, I am glad that I am alive to enjoy it all.  To know there is no near future expire date on me that I know of anyway.  We all have an expiry date and I actually had one 5 yrs ago when I was first diagnosed.  I faced all of this and I felt ready because I did not have a choice at the time.  
Now, I have that choice and if faced with it,, I am not ready to die.  
I still have too much to do in my life.  Too much sharing to be had.  Too many laughs to be laughed.  Too many hugs to be hugged.  
I want to tell anyone facing death, that I totally admire them and learn from them.  Learn to appreciate love and life on a daily basis.