That is my question of the day to myself.  Would I be ready to die???  I mostly would say yes... but then there is a selfish part of me that says no.
That part is the one that enjoys seeing our children every day and sharing in their lives everyday.  I would miss that.  
I would miss see my beautiful husbands smile.
I would miss winter,, yup, can't believe I said that because I loath winter.. but when it suddenly would be taken from me... I know I would miss it.
I would miss seeing my future grandchildren and playing with them.  
I would miss my friends and customers.  I would miss my pets.  
I know I would not be around to miss any of these, but it is the unknown that I would miss.
Therefore, I am glad that I am alive to enjoy it all.  To know there is no near future expire date on me that I know of anyway.  We all have an expiry date and I actually had one 5 yrs ago when I was first diagnosed.  I faced all of this and I felt ready because I did not have a choice at the time.  
Now, I have that choice and if faced with it,, I am not ready to die.  
I still have too much to do in my life.  Too much sharing to be had.  Too many laughs to be laughed.  Too many hugs to be hugged.  
I want to tell anyone facing death, that I totally admire them and learn from them.  Learn to appreciate love and life on a daily basis.  

Been a while since I last blogged.  Happens that way :)
My memory sucks.  Just gotta say it.  So embarrassing to be out and have people talking to me that I have no idea what they are talking about!  I can only pretend so long and then I have to say... "sorry, but I don't remember you, but if you give me some details it will come to me"  Wow, talk about making a client of mine feel special... :P
Then there's my throat and voice.  Been having troubles.  Maybe just temporary but am definitely looking forward to my dr. appt this coming Monday!  Will post more details next week when i get them. :)