As much as I have been seeking treatment and know this is my only choice, I'm still nervous. JUST starting to get nervous. Lots of unknows still really.
I'm guaranteed through others testimonies that I will resume life immediately the same way. Ottawa Hospital also told me that my neck will swell, that the skin will burn and that I won't be able to talk. Hummmm.... Guess I don't need any of that to groom.
Then I just read how one persons tumour swelled 33% larger before it shrunk. I can't say I didn't read about this stuff before. I can't say I didn't know this is a possiblility along with the lady who had a stroke from her's swelling. lol Just that as the days are ticking closer, the realities become more ...well.. reality.
One real good thing tho, I quickly throw all this aside and look at the fact I can get right back to work and enjoy my regular activities right away! :p
I just mention my feelings here because I know there are many who like me, face these issues and all our feelings and fears are there, we just hide them, then move on :)
I'm having "Fun Time Friday" this weekend! It's a "Pre-Toastie Party" celebrating my last party night before I get toasted up at the Ottawa Radiation Department. :)
Oshawa bound this fri, I'm sure I'll share THAT story(ies) with you lololol
I'm guaranteed through others testimonies that I will resume life immediately the same way. Ottawa Hospital also told me that my neck will swell, that the skin will burn and that I won't be able to talk. Hummmm.... Guess I don't need any of that to groom.
Then I just read how one persons tumour swelled 33% larger before it shrunk. I can't say I didn't read about this stuff before. I can't say I didn't know this is a possiblility along with the lady who had a stroke from her's swelling. lol Just that as the days are ticking closer, the realities become more ...well.. reality.
One real good thing tho, I quickly throw all this aside and look at the fact I can get right back to work and enjoy my regular activities right away! :p
I just mention my feelings here because I know there are many who like me, face these issues and all our feelings and fears are there, we just hide them, then move on :)
I'm having "Fun Time Friday" this weekend! It's a "Pre-Toastie Party" celebrating my last party night before I get toasted up at the Ottawa Radiation Department. :)
Oshawa bound this fri, I'm sure I'll share THAT story(ies) with you lololol
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